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Well 4 years and 2 kids later I am still trying to figure out this whole mom thing. No one talks about the dark side of parenting. The PPD, the endless nights, painful hard breasts, bad latches, the meltdowns. After we had K I had a very hard time coping. I could barely get out of bed, I didn't know up from down. Our two little dogs suffered the most. I knew I wasn't doing a good enough job and treating them the way they deserved so I made the decision to re-home them. We found them a loving family with two little girls where each dog could have their own one on one attention. A little back track, K's birth story is a little crazy. My water broke in the early morning on April 30, 2015. I called the OBGYN as soon as they opened and told them what happened, but me being a first time mother the nurse didn't take me seriously and told me I was lying. Contractions didn't start until the next day and didn't get regular enough until around 10pm May 1. Bruce and I wen...

Well I have to say that through this pregnancy I have been very blessed. I honestly have no complaints about being sick or throwing up or anything. Bruce has been such a huge help with everything. All my crazy emotions and out bursts on top of working two jobs. I get so lonely sometimes because I miss him so much but he is doing all he can to provide for me and the baby. I appreciate him so much I don't know what I would do without him. They are still saying that we are having a girl so that is what we went and registered for and I just loved how excited he was picking things out and scanning them in. It helps me to see how excited and happy he is to have this baby. I stopped working earlier than I expected to because of stress and family things so I am home now just trying to get things ready for this little bug to get here. We have her bed all ready to go and I already started packing her bag to come home with. I am scared and excited to become a mom. It will be the st...

Well my time at Salon 56 is coming to a close real soon. Everything there is just becoming way to over whelming and stressful and I have a baby to think about now. So I will be quitting in the next couple of days and I will be moving to another salon hopefully soon I will keep you all posted. On to better news...The doctor is pretty sure we are having a girl...why pretty sure you ask?? Well she wouldn't move what so ever but she did before and after the ultra sound. And she is also measuring small so they might be changing the due date and dong another ultra sound. She is about a week to a week and a half small so I don't know what they are going to do. I am not too worried because I am small and my husband is small so I am sure we are going to have small babies. She is looking very healthy and loves to stretch when I am sitting down or bending over so that's fun lol. I do love to feel her move because then I know that she is ok and that I am another day closer to ...

Well the secret is out Bruce and I are finally expecting our first child. Our due date is May 5, 2013 so a long way off. It still doesn't feel real to me our insurance is dumb so the next time that we will even see the baby is in December when we find out if it is a boy or a girl and if everything is ok with the heart. I worry so much that something will go wrong I know that I shouldn't but I do. One thing that I can say is that I get angry so much faster and easier over everything. I hate it but all these extra hormones and what not are messing with me. I am only about 10 weeks give or take a few. Our next appointment is October 26 but I think we only get to hear the heart beat for the most part, I don't quite know what else they will do. I hate feeling so angry and upset all the time I don't know how to change that either. I am still working over at Salon 56 is Clearfield but that isn't the best environment for me to be in either. Well I guess I better g...

So we have been up here for a couple months now and it has been so nice!! I love my job at Salon 56 I work with such amazing people I am learning so much. Still not pregnant if anyone is wondering lol you probably weren't haha. We are all settling into our routines the dogs go to my parents when I work during the week which has been such a blessing. Bruce found a job over at Lifetime on the freeport center he has been liking the slower pace of the phone calls. I have been working for about a month and a half now at first I was really nervous cause I was so out of practice but since getting back into the swing of things I am so loving it being there everyday!!! I actually love going to work every day lol. Although I had to call in sick today :( yesterday I was so super sick I could barely swallow anything and I thought my ear was going to explode. So I go to the doctor this morning and he told me that he was surprised that my ear drum hadn't burst yet. He said my left e...

Well we have been up in our new house in Layton for about two months now and it has been so nice. Even though we had set backs and things we have still made it through some stressful times. I am very thankful that my husband was able to find a full time job close to home so that he didn't have to drive down to Provo every single day for work...we spent a couple hundred on gas alone to get him to work and back...I got lonely waiting for the long drive after he got off so that I knew he was safe at home. He would tell me every day about another car accident he saw on the way to and from work...scared me like crazy I just prayed that he would have a safe drive there and back. I am still looking for a job but I am doing nails out of my house lie super part time lol until I get more of a clientele base. I do think though that my husband and I are starting to have a much better relationship and are starting to be happier than when we lived in Provo. I don't know what it is down...