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So I am taking my three hour glucose test right now and its major painful!!! They just keep stabbing my arms trying roi find my viens but they are being sneaky...they are hiding....which is kinda dumb cause then they go swimming in my arm trying too draw blood!!! One nurse...bless her heart she feels really bad she went threw a nerve...which gusts like a mother!!!! But first hour down treaty more to go thank goodness!! My mom if with me cause bruce couldn't get time off work sad day huh that's how life goes sometimes. I'm laying in the bed with the light off cause my eyes won't so watering and my head hurts but I'm not allowed too take anything for it cause that would affect my tests...how two test ..to be continued...ok I'm back they got it on the first try yay :)!!! One more to go then I am going too stuff myself full of food....lol and gain more weight that I don't need!!!! Now to wait for the next hour. My thyroid test came back normal again which makes ...

So I went in for a second opinion this morning and he said it wasn't hypoglycemia that it sounds more like a seizure or a ... stroke. So now I am really scared...I don't know what too do anymore. I now have to go in for an eeg, mri, echo bubble study, glucose test, and to a neurologist still. I am going to be going through a ton :(. At least he took me off of the three medications and now I am only on one (thank goodness). The tests start this friday morning then another one saturday then one in april and one in may...way too spread apart!!! I just want to figure things out for once!!! More to come when I know more... ...Peace Out Homies...

Ok so I decided that I was tired of being over medicated so I called my old doctors office and they were able to squeeze me in this week...on Wednesday acutally...so I am going to drive up to my parents right after school probably arrive around nine (yuck) and my appointment is in the morning (double yuck) but I am so thankful that they got me in!! I can't wait till he takes me off all these pills...which I know he will...he will just schedule more tests than I would even like to think about. But I do know that he will get to bottom of this...cause the doctor I am going too now is doing me absolutely no good he doesn't listen to my questions!! Stupid him oh well I just want to stop feeling like a druggie lol. Well I am going to watch tv now and eat some yummy chips :) ...Peace Out Homies...

Well I went to the doctors yesterday and he put me on two more medications on top of the the one I have been on for over a month now. One is for my stomach and the other is because my headaches are overpowering the one medication. I think this naproxen is really doing a number on my stomach cause it kills from when I wake up in the morning to when I fall asleep and then it starts up again the next day. Like right now it really hurts I am just waiting for the stupid pill to kick in already to I can acutally function and be myself...who ever that is lol. I really need to do my nails today too they have grown out a lot and I am ready for a new color. My stomach sure hurts worse than my head right now. Oh ya...and he is sending me to a neurologist...I am really nervous about that...what if something is really wrong... :(. I don't want to go through more testing and what not all this stress is killing me I swear. I am watching Alice in Wonderland right now on my DVR I have nothing else...

Does anyone really pay attention to these things?? I mean really?? I love to just get on here when I am having a slow day or just to see how my friends are doing but I am not the best at writing on my own. I feel like I am slipping into this depression again and I can't get out of it this time. My puppy is at my parents so I don't have her and my husband is just clueless. I love him and all but I tired of him not really being here for me to talk and cry to him. School is getting so much more busy, the pills the doctor gave me for my headaches aren't working anymore so I am back to taking tylonol all day long. I don't really talk to anyone at school there is way too much drama it is insane!! I mean come on girls grow up!!!! I really just need a break from the world to get some rest and find myself again...because I don't know who I am or what I want or anything like that. I feel so broken inside and alone. I don't even feel missed when I am gone I feel like if I ...