OuR LoVe StOrY

Ok so I went to my doctors on Saturday and he told me that I am over weight which is the main problem so I am not pregnant just fat. He said that I needed to go on a diet to lose the weight. I was so upset!!! I still am actually. I mean I knew that I gained weight and everything but he flat out told me that I am over weight and that is why I haven't had my period yet. But that really doesn't make any sense to me at all. I don't understand it at all. Freak I am so frustrated with everything!!! Grr!!!!!!!

So my birthday came and went by and it wasn't very fun. I did get to see my parents but not for very long. I took a pregnancy test after I woke up on my birthday and it was still negative :(. It is so frustrating I just don't understand. So I had a weird dream. I took a pregnancy test and it came back negative (no surprise) but then like fast forward a week or something and I took another one and it came back positive!! I don't know what to think. After it finally came back positive I was 8 weeks pregnant. Does this mean something or am I just crazy?????

Ok so my birthday is tomorrow and I am not super excited. I don't get to see my family or have a big party or anything. But I do get to get my hair colored and my nails filled which I am really excited about!! Wow I am gonna be 20 and then on the 30 of this month I will have been married for a year how crazy is that???!!! It sure has been an up and down thing. We have had a lot of struggles but have been able to work through them which is a good thing hahaha. We are still looking for another puppy dog to go with the one that we already have. And still trying for a baby....I think that I am 7 weeks but all the tests keep coming back negative which is annoying. I have not been super stressed or anything so I don't know what else it could be except for me being pregnant. Man life is way too confusing lol.

Why can't he get off his butt and take care of me?? What is so hard about that??? I always take of him but no taking care of me is out of the question!!! He comes home from work and I have a headache and stomachache so he comes in the room and turns on the light and then walks out leaving the light on making my head worse!!! And then makes himself some dinner didn't even ask me or nothing. So I finally get up and go by myself for food and a pepsi. Why can't guys man up and take care of us????

My husband and I have been trying to get pregnant since November of 09 and so far is hasn't worked for us. I could be pregnant now but every pregnancy test that I take keeps coming up negative!!! And my period hasn't come!!! How does that work??? I am not stressed or anything so what is going on with me???? I will be excited if I am pregnant I am tired of all the let downs each month when I find out that I am not pregnant. I wish i knew if I was or not. If I am not then I want to start beauty school. Ugh I hate not knowing what is going on!!!! If anyone has an idea of what is wrong with me please tell me cause I am clueless!!!!