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My sister asked me a question tonight, "Have you thought of who would take the kids if something happened to you and Bruce?" I have thought about it here and there but we have never really sat down and had that kind of conversation. I mean who wants to? Who wants to make a plan like that? No one, but sometimes they are necessary and that is a scary thing. How do you even go about finding the right couple to raise your kids as if they were theirs? Do you look at family? Do you turn to friends? Whose feelings would be hurt if they weren't chosen? It gives me anxiety to even think about it. My kids are everything, as I am sure that yours are as well. But honestly how do you choose? K is so strong willed, will only do things if it is her way. B is so tender-hearted, he always wants to make things better. I only ever want the best for them. Heavenly Father blessed me with them because I am the best mother for them. I am what they need. How do you choose the person that will ...

Well 4 years and 2 kids later I am still trying to figure out this whole mom thing. No one talks about the dark side of parenting. The PPD, the endless nights, painful hard breasts, bad latches, the meltdowns. After we had K I had a very hard time coping. I could barely get out of bed, I didn't know up from down. Our two little dogs suffered the most. I knew I wasn't doing a good enough job and treating them the way they deserved so I made the decision to re-home them. We found them a loving family with two little girls where each dog could have their own one on one attention. A little back track, K's birth story is a little crazy. My water broke in the early morning on April 30, 2015. I called the OBGYN as soon as they opened and told them what happened, but me being a first time mother the nurse didn't take me seriously and told me I was lying. Contractions didn't start until the next day and didn't get regular enough until around 10pm May 1. Bruce and I wen...