Where to start??...

So this past week has been stressing me out a ton!! I started having darker discharge last Monday and it dept going and is still going. I haven't bled like at all. So I was hoping that I would start my period and maybe there would be some light at the end of the tunnel but nope... I feel sick too blah!!! I have had no cramping which is weird. Cause I usually have cramps that keep me in bed all day long. I have had some pressure here and there but nothing much. It has been so hard for my husband and I. Not being able to get pregnant or even know what is going on with my body. Don't get me wrong I am so happy for my friends that are pregnant and having babies I love them and only wish the best for them...I just wish that I was one of them. I envy them that it has come so easy for them. I really hope that this new doctor that I am going to see will help me find some options and maybe tell me how to start my period so my body might be able to get back to normal...if it is possible. I was talking to my husband the other night and was telling him that I just wanted to go to talk to the doctor and if he says that there is something wrong and that I can't have my own children well then I need to know about it and I need to know now so I can cry and move on with my life...he didn't like that very much. He was really upset with me after I said that. I mean I am not saying that I want the doctor to tell me that but he might. I just want to be better. I am tired of not being on a normal schedule. At least the construction has stopped but the kids who love by us decided that they like to scream right outside my open bedroom window still not a nice wake up call. But that is what you get when you live in an apartment. Well I guess I better go I don't feel too good and I think I need to try and eat something.

Peace Out Homies

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