Life goes on...

Well we have been up in our new house in Layton for about two months now and it has been so nice. Even though we had set backs and things we have still made it through some stressful times. I am very thankful that my husband was able to find a full time job close to home so that he didn't have to drive down to Provo every single day for work...we spent a couple hundred on gas alone to get him to work and back...I got lonely waiting for the long drive after he got off so that I knew he was safe at home. He would tell me every day about another car accident he saw on the way to and from work...scared me like crazy I just prayed that he would have a safe drive there and back. I am still looking for a job but I am doing nails out of my house lie super part time lol until I get more of a clientele base. I do think though that my husband and I are starting to have a much better relationship and are starting to be happier than when we lived in Provo. I don't know what it is down there but I just got so very depressed and I lost who I was as a person...I felt so alone down there...it was horrible. I had my husband and our dogs and my schooling but that just wasn't helping me enough...I think I needed the people who knew me best, who understood me, accepted me for who I was including my flaws. I guess I just didn't feel wanted down there...I felt ignored a lot that's for sure. But that time of our lives is over now and we have a new start to a new chapter in life and so far it is looking pretty good. It is nice being closer to my family I absolutely love seeing my nephews more often the can always put a smile on my face...and take it away pretty fast lol. We have kind of put having a baby on a back burner for now...it just got me so upset seeing all the negative answers on the pregnancy tests and not being normal anymore doesn't help either... So we are focusing on us, our dogs, and just being happy and accepting what the lord gives to us that day. I think that I have become more open in how I see things and how I approach the church...I have struggled in the past with accepting things...or maybe just the people who try and teach it... ;). Ahhh I just can't say enough about how much happier I am being back up here it was like a weight was lifted up off my shoulders and I could breath a little again...I still have some weight to deal with but I am working on it. Well I guess I will end this for now...it's getting pretty late and I am super exhausted and my husband really wants brownies...so I should probably wake up and make them in the morning...

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  1. Nick & Autumn Van KomenMay 31, 2012 at 10:38 AM

    Im glad things are working out for you! where did bruce find a job? are you guys renting in Layton? Now that youre living up here we need to get together and go to lunch or something!

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