Test results

Well the results came back normal which makes no sense what so ever!!! I don't understand how I can be so sick but be so healthy!!! Can some one tell me how on earth this can be??!! When my nurse called me and told me I cried :(. It isn't that I am not grateful that I don't have a brain tumor or anything I am just more confused because appearently I am normal!!! Stupid technical stuff!!! I am really struggling here and I don't know what to do!!! I just feel so alone and so helpless like I don't have a friend in the world ya know?...well of couse you don't know you are just a blog post...I mean I do have certain people that I can talk to but I just still feel so very alone... :(. I really don't know what is wrong with me...I feel so very broken inside and out and I don't know how to go about fixing myself. I feel like I am competing in something that I am never going to win at...friendship, family,school,marriage,just life in general...no I am not suicidal. Ugh I am just in an all time low lately :(...I guess thanks for listening...well reading...or just letting me vent without tryint to fix things....echo bubble studay on the 11 can't wait :(

...Peace Out Homies...

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