Can't sleep

Well it's almost midnight twenty lol and I am wide awake which sucks because I have school in only a few hours write it's like I'm back in high school late nights and early mornings only this time it's much longer days. Well my first real saturday on the floor actually working on a client has come and gone, and I have too say it wasn't as scary as I thought it would be lol. The lady who came in wasn't too sure at first because of a previous experience she had at the school but by the time she was finished she was very happy with the end result and was glad she came in and I even talked her into buying an amazing product!! I was very proud of myself :). It's my husbands birthday on friday...i think lol I know that sounds bad. Our two year anniversary is coming up soon as well. Given our ups and downs I am glad we have made it this far. But the really scary thing is...he says that he is now ready for a baby...but I don't think that I am...I mean now that I am in school I realize that if I had a baby I don't know what I would do I am at school all freaking day I would never be able too be both a mom and a full time student or even part time student I don't even have my family too rely on down here I would go crazy!!! I just don't think a baby would be a good idea right now...although I bet that is what he really wants for his birthday...a positive pregnancy test because all we have ever gotten was negative. I just need to keep focusing on school the way that I have so I can graduate sooner and start working and then we can move into our first house...which I have found a couple that I absolutely love...too bad they probably won't still be for sale when we will be looking :( well I guess since it's past midnight thirty I should probably try too sleep I'll post more at a later date...lol

...Peace Out Homies...

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  1. Nick & Autumn Van KomenJanuary 10, 2011 at 5:51 PM

    i dont know when you're projected to graduate but just remember that even if you find out your pregnant soon you still have 9 months of independence without taking care of a baby... i dont know the circumstance but i would pray about it and see what answers the lord has for you. good luck and i hope you figure out what you want to do!

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