Where to start this...

Well it has been a long time since I have written on here so I guess I better write something now while my nephews are still sleeping. My brother comes home from his mission this week...well tomorrow actually how crazy is that?? It has already been two years. That means that this October my husband and I will have been together for 2 years as well. I start school on Monday and I am scared out of my mind!!! There are only going to be 10 TOTAL students. It will be really nice to have such a small class size but really easy to notice when some one (mostly me) messes something up lol. I have been spending the week at my parents and it just seems to be dragging. Usually the time goes by too fast and then I have to leave and go back home. My sister is on the tennis team so my parents and her are up and gone by 7:30 in the morning every morning which makes me kind of sad because then I get less time with them. Every thing is changing so fast around me. My nephews are getting so big I can't believe it, my little sister is 16 and a junior in high school, as I said before my brother is coming home from his mission, my other brother got married in January, and SCHOOL STARTS MONDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Ha I just can't say that enough. I am trying to make it sink in because I don't feel like it is going to start. Classes are going to be super long too, from 8 am to 7 pm Monday through Thursday and then when I start the hair portion it will be 8 am to 7 pm Monday through Thursday and Friday and Saturday 9 am to 3 pm, so I will be a super busy girl!! I think what I am going to do though is take a few pictures every day during school and kind of scrap book them so I can remember me "Growing Up" (I hate those two words lol). I mean who wants to do that in the first place. NO one really likes letting go of their childhoods and their wishes and dreams from the time when anything was possible. I also decided that I am going to go back on birth control so that I will be able to make it all the way through school with no stops and starts in the middle. I thought that I was ready to start having kids but now that I have had more time to think about it and register for school, the truth is is that I really am not ready at all. If I were pregnant right now I seriously wouldn't know what to do!! I would be so lost and so helpless. I will just spend more time with my nephews (if I can find it:( ). My schedule is going to be so crazy I am not sure what I am going to do. I still have to find a dog sitter during the day so that she will not be alone all day long and that she will have time to go outside and do her business lol. If I can't figure something out I don't know what I am going to do... When I look back on what I wanted out of life and where I thought I would be by now my reality and my dreams are completely different lol (like most are). I once dreamed that I would be rich and live in a huge mansion lol that was a stretch. I know that life is hard and that their are always going to be trials and pain throughout it I know that I may complain a lot or cry a ton lol but I wouldn't change a thing. I like how things turned out, I know that my husband and I are still going to fight and argue and not be able to stand each other sometimes but that is just another factor of life. Well my sister just got home with the baby so I think I am going to go hold him.

Peace Out Homies

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