Oh I don't know...

It has been a tough year and how ever many months it is now. I am stressing waiting for the results from my blood work so I know what kind of medication I have to be on and my husband might have the flu so if he does then I will have to cancel my nail appointment and won't be able to see my sister and her new baby for a while. I hate living so far away. It isn't fair. I miss my family so much it hurts. I ache inside every time I have to leave and go back home. I cry all the time especially when I talk to my nephews and they say how much they miss me and want me to stay at their house. They get so mad when I tell them that I have to leave. What does the Lord want me to do? What does he want from me? I don't know if I can take much more of these trials they are tearing me apart. I just don't know what to do anymore...

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